I turned 38 on Friday....I ain't shame to admit it because I look damn good for my age (thanks to good Black and Asian genes). I don't feel physically older but I do admit that I'm tired. I love my husband, our home, what I do for a living but I'm a bit sick of my current work environment and my finances need a lot of work.
I am working on the finances via my side hustle and an interest-free loan from the hubster. I've cut back pretty dramatically on my spending (doing my own hair, only buy clothes when I drop a size and can't wear parachute looking pants anymore). Eating out continues to be a big expense but I'm trying to crawl before I can walk so I'm trying to reduce my fast food restaurant trips to twice a week M-F and once on the weekends. Some weeks have been better than others but I'll get there eventually.
As for the work environment, I've decided the only way to improve it....apart from totally checking out mentally is to secure a book contract and leverage that to get more release time. As a professor one of my primary duties is to conduct research and though I have 2 (and a possible) publications already under my belt (need 2 and high teaching ratings for tenure), I figure with a book contract, I can justifiably ask for a reduced teaching load so I can concentrate on my research. This will give me the ability to work from home more and hence, reduce my stress level. My goal is to have my book proposal out to potential publishers by the first of June so I have my work cut out for me.
As I'm getting older, I'm learning how to say "no" without feeling any guilt. Just last week, I was invited to speak on a panel about a topic I am an expert in but have mixed feeling about. A few years ago, I would have said yes just to put another line on my C.V. but now I'd rather use my energy on things that not only advance my career but also speak positively to my soul. Hmmm....maybe I am getting wiser.
